Up until about a month ago, I frequently had dreams about high school.
Bad dreams. The kind of dream where I'm lost in a sea of people, late for a class I can't find, and depending on the night, either nobody notices me or I'm met with people I used to go to school with and they treat me like I have no right to be there.
I had those dreams for six years. Never mind the fact that I wasn't even enrolled in public school for three of those years. The feeling of being an outsider was just that deeply engrained that first year or so and it never really went away.
I still struggle with the feeling, but nowhere near the degree that I did a few years ago. I think having friends in close proximity again (and just having friends, period) helps. And the dreams, as far as I can tell, have stopped. Huzzah!
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